What's going on?

My life is taking me on emotional roller coasters lately. I feel like I'm on the verge of something big, then I find I'm just heading in the wrong direction. Or am I? I'm having a hard time staying centered lately, listening to my inner voice. My inner child keeps getting excited about stuff and my enthusiasm seems to get in the way. I get reality checks that hit hard, but don't point me in the right direction. Or maybe I'm just not hearing it.